It’s the first day of winter and I could not be happier! Besides it being my favourite season every single year, I think this year will top them all.
I was midway through writing up an Instagram post and mentioned how I decided to take unnecessary pressure off myself so that I can enjoy the season ahead for me and truly make it the best time of my life and thought that I’d love to share how I’m going to make the most of this season ahead.
Here’s how it all started…
A few weeks ago I had a little bit of a meltdown. These don’t actually happen that often for me but I was just feeling it. I was trying to do an assignment that I just was not understanding and I was frustrated with myself and I spat it. I said to Dyl that I didn’t want to study anymore, I wanted to drop units/drop out of uni, I wanted to just spend all my time on wedding and house planning. I didn’t care, who needs a degree anyway… I shut my laptop and slid it across the loungeroom floor – I was done. It was a bit dramatic, haha. Dyl just sat there kindly as I vented and then said things that were sensible that I didn’t want to hear (why are guys always so logical!?) but that were things I needed to hear. I then text my little sister to download everything. She has just graduated and also studied while working full time so it’s nice to get her advice because she knows what it’s like trying to balance it all. The thing was/is, of course I want to get my degree! I have goals & dreams and obtaining a degree is a stepping stone to reaching those, but I also want to enjoy wedding and house planning and take in every moment of this season I’m in right now.
When I started studying, I said to myself that I wanted to graduate before I turn 30. A great goal to have and always a good idea to set timeframes, but the thing I didn’t consider was all the other stuff that would be going on in between starting university and turning 30. We’re only going to be getting married once, and we’re only going to be building our first home once too, and uni is something I want to do well in, so after talking it over with Dyl and my sister, here’s what I decided to do…
- B R E A T H E – everything will actually be okay
- Cut myself some slack – it’s okay to shift the goal posts and make changes. My world won’t end if I haven’t graduated by 30
- Not dropout – while it’s tempting some days, I’m better off just taking a step back for this season and chip away with 1 unit instead of feeling overwhelmed by 2 while trying to balance everything else
- Reprioritise – the goals are still there, but I’ve just shuffled the priority of them around and that is totally okay
- Have the best time of my life – I’m going to make the most of every sweet moment over the next 12 months and truly have the best time of my life celebrating what’s ahead
Getting married and building a home are big life moments that I don’t want to miss out on because I’ve stressed myself out. In a years time, I want to be able to look back and feel so much joy about the best time of my life. I definitely don’t want to be feeling regret that I didn’t slow other area’s of my life down to enjoy what’s happening for me right now. So I’ve made some changes, and I’m totally okay with them because if there’s one thing I know about life is that we need to be adaptable and we need to make sure we don’t miss the big moments. ♥
Hannah Proctor 